Hello friends. It sure has been a while. I am still here but with some major changes. I started my job two weeks ago and it’s brought a lot of stress into my life. This would be one reason why I have not surfaced for a while. It’s not a terrible or overly stressful job it’s just altered my schedule and I have not yet gotten used to the change. It has been really hard for me to adjust and my body has suffered from it. I hope that I can get back to my old self soon because this half marathon is in a week :O!
One of the major changes to my schedule has been eating. Basically my job requires me to be at work from 5-10 almost every evening. This means that dinner must happen before work very early in the evening. When I get off of work I find myself downing anything unhealthy in sight as a means of “relaxation.” I used to do this before when I worked in a high paced atmosphere and it was ugly. To cope with this I have thrown out a lot of the bad things hanging around in the apartment. Before the job I had plenty of self control to avoid them but now not as much. I have also devised a strategy for after work snacking: grab a luna/lara or mini clif bar to keep my hands out of the big bad stuff. After the past few weeks of feeling awful about myself I think I’m ready to start with this plan.
Another serious change has been the amount of physical labor I do at work. It’s a 5 hour workout in itself. I have therefore lost a lot of motivation to get out and do real exercise and running. I’ve been so exhausted and in pain from running myself at work that I just don’t want to do the regular stuff. While I understand that I am burning calories at work, it just isn’t the same as doing a real workout. I need to get back on the ball and get some good running in this week before the race.
Another factor to my lack of motivation has been my serious sleep problems. I come home and get to bed much later than normal. I then get a restless nights sleep as my mind does not seem to switch off. I then find myself still waking up at the crack of dawn utterly exhausted. I try to sleep more but it just does not work. My body then feels yuck, I feel yuck and the rest of the day seems totally devoid of energy.
The job has altered my schedule and ultimately left me feeling totally out of control and off balance these past two weeks. I am tired of it controlling me and I am ready for this change to settle with my body. I realize that these things take some time but it’s been really really hard on me. This morning I am feeling much better and rested (thanks to my off day) so I am ready to go for a run to burn off the countless number of unnecessary and unhealthy calories I’ve shoved into my body this week. Emotional eating sucks major.
On a more positive note, I did compete in a 5k last weekend and did AMAZING! It was a small race but I am still super proud of my accomplishments. I was the 9th overall female and was 2nd in my age group with a time of 24:04. I was so close to beating the other girl in my age group. She came in at 23:54. SO CLOSE! I even watched her as she started to die down at the end. I could see her getting closer and closer to me. Maybe next time. The course was very hilly but I pushed myself hard and stayed close to the front with the leaders. It was great being able to compete with real athletes
I’ve also decided to start a new challenge this month after reading some of Michael Pollan’s words of wisdom this week. One thing that really stuck with me was how little food there really is at a grocery store. He suggests to buy local when you can and stick only to the outside aisles of the store. So I devised a small challenge for myself this month: Do not step foot into a grocery store for the entire month of May. Sound crazy? Maybe, but I think it’s easily do-able and much healthier. The farmer’s market in town just opened for the season providing me with fresh and local produce. As for dairy and meat; the market has recently started to provide these amenities as well. The farmer’s market in town has really grown since last year and now provides local meats and eggs. Milk and cheese are not yet available in town but I know that markets in the nearby area sell some of these goods so I might have to make a special trip. I have been really excited about this new challenge. I realized how little I really need at the grocery store and how much time I really spend there buying junk that I don’t need! This will save me money, get me outside in the fresh air, support local farmers and keep me healthier! Not to mention, the stuff from the farmer’s market tastes 100x better than anything from the grocery (have you tasted fresh strawberries vs. grocery berries?). It’s been a blast so far and I hope to keep the challenge going past May. I might alter it to hitting the grocery only once a month because eventually I will get through my stock pile of nut butters, cereals, canned veggies and Greek yogurt. Feel free to try the challenge yourself if you’re interested! Let me know if you do
Sorry for the long and verbose post. I promise pictures will resume soon. I’ve got a major race coming up to post about! I feel better already.